Week 20, Day 1: Crying over my VA job

Dear Junior,

Its 1am. I can't sleep and I have work tomorrow. I think I feel you kicking for the first time. All a bunch of firsts.

At first, I couldn't sleep because I have a lot on my mind. Dad and I are going to Quebec City and Montreal for a baby moon.  A good friend, Grace recommended a bunch of places to eat that will complete our vacation plans and I can't wait to add them to our master excel list.

Auntie Naemeh and her now husband got married last week in Hawaii. How romantic! Mike and I will have a little BBQ for them to celebrate this Friday. Cooking for 12 ppl.

My bachelorette party is Saturday. The girls have something planned for me and I can't wait to see how it rolls out.

I have a new Physical Therapy student starting tomorrow. Thank god that I have the experience of supervising a student under my belt and this is not my first time. I'm still nervous that I was half dreaming about my patient schedule and adding those items that Grace mentioned to my Montreal/Quebec City list.

We saw Auntie Kim and Auntie Cynthia on Saturday. They gave up and will continue to give stuff to us for you! We won't have to buy a thing and saving us so much money. I think Grandma Donna would be so pleased to know her nieces are taking care of me. I can't wait to update the master list. I want to do it right now. 

And lastly and most importantly, I was crying.... mourning over the future loss of my VA job over dinner. Once you are born I will have to retire my most favorite job that I have ever had. I work with the most fantastic, intelligent and flexible staff at the VA hospital in Brooklyn. My patient population, veterans are a special beast. Brave, bold, sensitive, who know how to take orders with the most amazing stories of life and service. Grace said look on the positive side - at least I got to have the job in the first place.

I love you Junior. I can't wait to tell you how this story unfolds - my professional life continued to evolve and I did not lose the best job ever but started on a new road that you helped me get on.

Sigh, I don't think that I should have had that cup of tea at lunch and the bubble tea after work. I think all that caffeine is what's keeping me up.

Love you lots,
Mom